February 12, 2014

Checking Boxes

The Church of Saint Simeon Stylites in Aleppo,...
The Church of Saint Simeon Stylites in Aleppo, Syria is considered to be one of the oldest surviving church buildings in the world. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Sometimes I hate church. Most times, really. I guess I'm more damaged than I thought. And I don't feel like this is a safe place to be damaged. And I think it should be. Otherwise, what's the point? For the majority of my life I have felt more safe, loved, and supported by my friends than by anyone in any church, spiritually and otherwise. I felt more encouraged, challenged, and affirmed by a Saturday night conversation with H than by any small group. There is an overwhelming sense that I don't belong here. Even someone who once affirmed my weirdness and outspokenness later treated my honest questions and concerns as flaws and annoyances.

Most days I want to run screaming from church. Or cry in a corner. I feel like there's no point. I feel like no one wants to hear anything I have to say. And if I did say anything they would burn me at the stake.
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January 20, 2014


Listening to: Saturday Night Live with Drake.
Saturday Night Live (season 32)
Saturday Night Live (season 32) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Thinking about: Giving myself a pedicure.
Dreaming of: Going for a run.
Excited about: My husband being home.
Loving: My friend, who went out of her way to see me after a decade apart.

Thanks to Pink Heels Pink Truck for the post idea.
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January 02, 2014

2013 Retrospective

1. What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?
I attended my uncle’s wedding.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don’t remember what they were.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
4. Did anyone close to you die?
5. What countries did you visit?
None, unfortunately.
6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
More versatile clothes.
7. What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I’m not really good with dates. But the concert I took my Mom to on Mother’s Day, the Mud Run, and T’s 22-person birthday party are definitely highlights.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Supporting my family.
9. What was your biggest failure?
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I have pharyngitis right now! Oh, and I took a softball to the knee.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Admission to the Mud Run.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
T, for taking care of me when I’m sick. My Mom, for going with the flow and having her priorities straight. HN and N, for being supportive and helping us move and paint! These are just a few, I actually have way too many people to list, which is awesome.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
No comment.
14. Where did most of your money go?
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Glow Race, Mother’s Day concert, game night at HN’s, running tour.
16. What song will always remind you of 2013?
The Wobble. Can’t Hold Us and/or Thrift Shop and/or Wings by Macklemore. Somebody That I Used to Know covered by Mayday Parade. I Love It by Iconapop. Gangnam Style by Psy. Before the Throne.
Mayday Parade
Cover of Mayday Parade
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? About the same level of happy, just in different ways.
ii. thinner or fatter? Definitely heavier.
iii. richer or poorer? Well, I own property now, so there’s that. It’s kind of a double-edged sword.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent Christmas Eve with my parents. I spent Christmas Day playing games.
21. Did you fall in love in 2013?
I stayed in love.
22. How many one-night stands?
We have two nightstands.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
Dirty Jobs.
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
No. My level of hate may actually have decreased.
Cover of "American Gods: A Novel"
Cover of American Gods: A Novel
25. What was the best book you read?
American Gods.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
High Street Hymns, E.S. Posthumus
27. What did you want and get?
Wise counsel from others.
28. What did you want and not get?
To be closer to some of my friends, geographically. For some of my friends to make good decisions for themselves.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Iron Man 3, John Dies at the End, World War Z, Pacific Rim, and The Conjuring.
30. What did you do on your birthday?
I had a cookout at my parents’ house.
31. What would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Taking better care of myself.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
Denim, purple, polka dots, tights.
33. What kept you sane?
Articles and TEDtalks about Psychology, trips to the River, laughing with my husband, dinners with friends, honest arguments with friends.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Aidan Turner.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Not sure if this is political, but racism in the media.
36. Who did you miss?
T, my Mom, G, H, among others.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
The Ps!
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013:
That God doesn’t owe me anything.
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December 18, 2013

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November 13, 2013

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September 15, 2013

Nannying and Marriage

Ugh, I've had to miss so much work lately. I hate it! I am excited to see my monkey boys again tomorrow though.
I had to spend two nights and most of two days away from my husband this week and I missed him terribly. Perhaps that sounds pathetic, but I really don't care. Even worse, one of the guys at my uncle's wedding was dressed very similarly to how my husband often dresses, and he even had the same color hair and skin tone and a similar haircut! I kept seeing him out of the corner of my eye and getting excited and then remembering that my husband was roughly three and a half hours away. I was so happy to see him Friday evening and he was so helpful in getting the bonfire started for my family. (We were at my grandparents' cabin.)

Perhaps the first audio format logo, the LP sy...
Perhaps the first audio format logo, the LP symbol appeared on countless records (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Wednesday night I got to stay with my Mom and we had a really great conversation about anything and everything on our way to her house. I really miss those. We talked about my friends and her friends, about her dog and my cat (her grandcat), house-hunting, and a million other things. The next evening we spent at a hotel. She timed me on my run and didn't even fuss at me when it started raining and I kept running!
Of course, while I was out of town, my friend LP had her baby. She had a little girl! My husband got to go to the hospital and hold her when she was only four hours old. I am so jealous. He also gave the proud new papa some peace of mind by going to their house and letting their dogs out while they stayed at the hospital for a few days, due to my friend having a c-section. However, I got to see the baby today! My husband said I was a natural and her mommy said she liked me! We were only able to stay for an hour but I will get to see them twice more this week. The little girl was a little fussy at first because she was hungry, but she soon snuggled into me and took a nice little nap once I walked her around a bit.
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August 31, 2013

Test 1, 2, 3....

August 24, 2013

Moving and pedicures

English: Supernanny, Jo Frost, at the Children...
English: Supernanny, Jo Frost, at the Children's Museum in Easton, Easton, Massachusetts. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Today was an absolutely insane day. It was also a very fun day. I am now detoxing by watching SuperNanny.

I perfected the lazy Saturday look this morning. I wore my checkerboard Vans slip-ons. It was pretty awesome, and perfect for helping my friend H move.

English: Vans headquarters, Cypress, California
English: Vans headquarters, Cypress, California (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
This week I went through the arduous process of giving myself a pedicure. I even used a buffing block. It turned out rather well, despite my lack of a topcoat. I used OPI's An Affair in Red Square. It's a great true red, very classic.

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August 08, 2013

Coriander (Photo credit: Ruby's Feast)
T's hydroponic garden is doing great. We have celery, spinach, basil, parsley, thyme, sage, green onions, cilantro, and dill so far! We have tasted the cilantro, but we haven't sampled the others yet. The cilantro was so fragrant and yummy! It came straight off of our balcony instead of sitting for hours in a grocery store and/or truck or however else it is transported. The only hand that touched it were ours. It has been kept safe by wolf spiders and wasps instead of pesticides. It is so much fun to watch them grow and T gets so excited when a new little seedling pops up. It is fun to watch him and his enthusiasm is contagious.
 Soon I will start nannying again and I am so excited to see my boys! They are starting 2nd grade and fifth grade this year. I am also looking forward to making more money for less hours and not being on my feet as much as I am at my current job. I hurt my knee two years ago and it has never bothered me through running, mud runs, and various other activities. However, standing for 7 hours straight on concrete does make it sore. Who knew.
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